Despite how far you have gone, you are never too far for God! Back in 2007 God showed me that at the lowest point in my life, I was still reachable. He gave me this dream in January 2007. This is from my journal entry......
I went to church with mom. A lady was preaching and everyone was into the word. I sat there not wanting to listen, just not able to focus. I was sitting there with my head down. The lady walked up to me and said, "Where have you been?" It was no longer the lady but Jesus. I thought he was talking to someone else. I was so consumed with shame and unworthiness, I couldn't pick up my head. He pulled me up to my feet and asked again, "Where have you been?" I replied, "I'm so ashamed and have sinned so much that im not even worthy to be here." He gently said, "What did I do when so and so hurt me?" I replied, "You forgave them." He asked, "And when so and so did that?" I replied, "You forgave them.". Jesus replied," So what is the difference now?" and gently lifted up my head. He went on to say, "I will never leave you nor forsake you!" and with open arms he hugged me. I cried like a baby in the arms of Jesus.
To this day, I cry thinking about this dream. I was so lost at that time but God never gave up on me. He truly showed me mercy and grace. We don't know how God will get our attention or speak to us but when HE does, it is a life changing event.
Isaiah 55:7 "Let the wicked forsake his way And the unrighteous man his thoughts; And let him return to the LORD, And He will have compassion on him, And to our God, For He will abundantly pardon. 8"For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways," declares the LORD. 9"For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways And My thoughts than your thoughts.…