Trusting the Lord with everything has been a challenge. The most difficult have been with my finances and relationships. You would think by now, I would easily give it him but on the contrary, I still hold on. Last night the Lord gave me a dream. I am in my restroom and there is a big hole exposing the inner part of the house. You can see the pipes exposed, it is cold and damp and looks corroded. As I look into the exposure, I see a cat walking on the pipe. Now, this was no cute cat. It looked battered, beat , shabby like a tom cat. I tried shooing it away but as it was leaving, it stopped and looked at me. Then it turned around and came towards me. As it walked out the hole, the cat turned into a short, ugly man. Immediately, I knew it was satan himself. I began rebuking him in the name of Jesus and he stepped back. Suddenly, he began laughing and I became more bold. I straighten my back and leaned into him, commanding him to leave with the authority and power given to me by Jesus Christ. He turned to leave and when I looked outside, he transformed back into the cat. There he was on the prowl looking for the next person.
In the past, I was afraid to face satan directly. This time was different, I knew who and what he was, I also knew the authority I had in Jesus. This boldness overcame me like never before. I got up in his face and didn't back down until he left.
I asked the Lord what the dream meant. What he shown me were old pipes. It was significant because these pipes were hidden and could not be seen unless exposed. They were old. Just like the pipes, so was the tactic that the enemy had been using against me for years. The Lord was showing me an empty area in my life that He needs to fixed.
I already knew what it was. That big gap was my trust in him. For years, I put God aside in this one area. That area, well it is men, a relationship. My greatest desire is to be married but it also my greatest weakness. So many times I would be walking the path with God and every time a smooth, talking guy came along, I would get turned away. Funny thing is, I told Him this morning to remove every guy in my life that isn't for me.
I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I am tired of going around this mountain. For some it is easy. For me, it is a challenge but like I told God, I am up to it. After all, He said He will never leave me nor forsake me.
So, back to church. On my way tonight, I am talking with God. We were having a deep, deep conversation. I told him I would trust Him for my husband and wait. I also reminded Him of the promise He gave me years ago. He said, "If I return to Him, He would give me the desires of heart- a husband" (You would think by now, I would of done this way back when.)
Well, what do you know. Pastor Simeon preached about trust! He said, "Trust God even when we can't see anything. Just like he gave the Israelite's manna from heaven, they didn't make the connection with the original promise. It tasted like where he was taken them! They missed the moment!"
Exodus 16:31 The people of Israel called the bread manna.[d] It was white like coriander seed and tasted like wafers made with honey.
I missed the moment plenty of times but I don't want to miss it anymore. I want the promise God gave me years ago. His word doesn't return void and that there, I am holding on to for dear life. I am trusting God and I am trusting IN HIM. .... JustFood4Thought