(April 10, 2009) I remember this day as if it was yesterday. It was a bright, sunny day with no clouds in sight. We were having a church function in the parking lot and the KSBJ van was there.
My sister and I were just walking around and I said, “Hey, why don’t we go ask for prayer to go to Israel?” So, there we go. We meet the red head KSBJ DJ, Jen, and tell her our prayer request. She is more than happy to pray for us BUT at the end she said. “TO BE PAID IN FULL.” I looked at her with amazement and thought. “Cool”. Jen said, “God is paying for it.” Those words didn’t resonate at that particular moment until years later.
Fast forward February 2015 when God answered that prayer! TBN selected me as a winner for the G16 trip to Israel with Pastor Joseph Prince. My trip was scheduled for February 2016.
Fast forward February 2016. I just returned from my 10 day trip and it was PAID IN FULL. Yes, that is correct. He took care of everything (my flights, room, meals, transportation and entry fees to sites). The only money I spent was my personal spending money.
I share this because as we were there, the main message was grace. Since I’ve returned, it seems as when I read my bible, all the scriptures are talking about grace. It has drawn me in. My perspective has sifted.
For a long prior to the trip I remember asking God, “What is this grace?” I didn’t understand it. It was new to me but I was curious. It was different from what I was taught both in my personal and religious life.
Growing up I had to do something in order to get something. In church I had to do ten rosaries to be forgiven. In my personal life I had to work to get affection or love. My perspective was thwarted.
Everything given to me, I had to work for. I’ve learned that with grace, I rest. Grace- free and unmerited favor of God.
I didn’t have to work for the trip. God showed me amazing grace. I didn’t have to be sin less or this perfect person. On the contrary, I was battling my own demons at home but God still blessed me with the trip to Israel because He loves me! And He loves you too! Stop trying to work for it, rather rest and let Him love you.