I've been so busy lately, I feel like there is not enough minutes in the day to do everything. I've been longing to write but my words just been piling up on paper. Now, I don't know where to start.
Do I start when my niece finally came to visit? Or when she ended up staying the night, thanking God that my baby girl was home while crying silently? Or maybe when I was driving home and was overwhelmed with the nudging to start interceding for her? Maybe I should start when I had to let go and let God?
She is my first and oldest niece. I remember her fat little cheeks and chubby legs as a baby. She was and still is my joy. There is nothing she can do that will ever make me not love her. We may not always agree but I sit silently in the background waiting and praying.
Before I experienced and accepted the love of the Father, I was pretty strict. I ruled with an iron first. I admit, I was pretty hard on her during her teen years but it was because I wanted the best for her. I saw the potential that she couldn't see. I saw greatness!
But how could I walk away? How could I let her fall? How long could we keep arguing? My words were like deafness to her ears. Then I remembered the Lord and cried. It hurt to let go. I had to surrender her to God and trust Him that if she fell, He would pick her up. If she was hurting emotionally, I had to trust God to heal the pain. This was a big step to let go and let God.
To this day, I sometimes want to take control but I am reminded of God's goodness, grace and love and step back. God can do better, protect better, defend better and most of all, love her better than me. His word says it over and over to trust Him. Will He not do what His word says? Did He not deliver His people from the enemy? Did He not turn a mess into something wonderful? Did He not restore His people?
This is how good and gracious God is. Nothing in His hand is lost. After all, He engraved her in the palm of His hand and called Ashley by name even before she graced the world with her presence. He knows every hair on her head and created her with perfection. If God created her, then He will care for her.
Just like God cares for Ashley, He will care for you......JustFood4Thought
Psalm 139:15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!