When I was a newly convert, it was very rare that I would share my trials or struggles. I was either embarrassed or thought I had to be politically correct. After all, what would people say or think? But the one thing I did share were my victories. Oh yea, I boasted about that but I didn't boast about the valleys God walked with me though and the victories He brought.
Even through the victories, the devil still had a upper hand on me. I still let him have control over me. You're probably wondering how if God gave me that victory. Well, he still had my mouth. It was shut. I still didn't speak of my past or what God delivered me from. I still was ashamed. I was still self-conscience of what people would think. I could not fully praise God for all that He had done because I was still thinking about what people would think. Crazy isn't? Something so subtle, kept me from glorifying God to the fullest.
But God is so good and has a lot of patience. He brought me all the way to Israel to show me how much He loves me. He gave me back my identity! It was like an instant revelation! Pastor Mike said something that clicked, "When people use to throw my past at me. I told them, “Then you know how much God has forgiven me." Something in my spirit changed instantly. The veil was lifted. It was as if my past, the shame and embarrassment all fell off. Imagine that, I left it there where Jesus healed, delivered and set people free. Israel. Glory be to God.
I am no longer ashamed. I know who I am. I know my name. One day God called me Princess and there is power and authority in what He called me.
A Princess doesn't back down from the enemy. She can call a legion of fighters to fight her battles and if there is a battle to hard, she can always go to her dad, the King (God) and win. God has given me the instructions - the bible, the equipment - armor of God, and the trumpet - my praise and worship. I know now that there is victory in my testimony.
The War in Heaven
…10Then I heard a loud voice in heaven, saying, "Now the salvation, and the power, and the kingdom of our God and the authority of His Christ have come, for the accuser of our brethren has been thrown down, he who accuses them before our God day and night.11"And they overcame him because of the blood of the Lamb and because of the word of their testimony, and they did not love their life even when faced with death. 12"For this reason, rejoice, O heavens and you who dwell in them. Woe to the earth and the sea, because the devil has come down to you, having great wrath, knowing that he has only a short time."
The devil can no longer petition and accuse me before God. The battle has been won. In the court of God, it has been dismissed. The victory is mine. My testimony isn't for me to keep secret. It is for people struggling with the same issues. They need to know what God has done, is doing and will continue doing for me because He will do the same for them........JustFood4Thought