When I began to really search for God, I wanted to hear from people who been through the trenches.. who been through hell and back BUT who survived !! Don’t get me wrong, I love hearing the pastors preach and I love reaping the word but I was still missing something. I wanted that person who knew my pain and what I was going through. I didn't want religion. I didn't want things sugar coated. I wanted to know how to survive and know that I would be ok.
The bible is a book of instructions. It covers everything we have or can go through. Yet, the best thing about it is, there is always victory for God’s people (the ones who trust and follow him). The funny thing is; the world doesn't tell us about this book of instructions. Rather it tells of the psychological, self help, meditating ways. I wasn't look for that. I didn't want self help. I didn't want to channel my inner being. I wanted real answers and resolution. I wanted to know if God was really real. I wanted to be healed and not masked.
That was the beginning of my journey many years ago. I have questioned God a few times throughout my course. I have even questioned my purpose. I had to separate myself from religious mumbo jumbo in order to experience him. Still throughout the years of experiencing his awesomeness and hearing the voice of God, I am barely beginning to understand grace and mercy.
I started this blog to journal my experiences with God. I am by no means a preacher or teacher. I just believe there is a person who is out there that is searching for true healing. I've been through the trenches and I've walked the plains but as with life, God isn't done with me yet. So, if any of my battles or experiences can give just one person hope, I am good with that.
In Isaiah 55:8 “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways”