It was during this difficult time that I penned the journal entry.
I was in a relationship that was rocky and we were both tired. Through out the years we kept returning but this last time, it finally hit a wall. I only thing I knew to do was give it to God. As much as it hurt, I had to let go and let God. It was scary because deep down I already knew the answer. I was about to let go of something that had been familiar for almost 20 years. I sat there alone and cried out to God. Tears covered my journal page. There was nobody to console me, my other half was gone. My only relief was to write and encourage myself.
Journal entry 01/01/16
The pastor said, "God is the author of our story." We need to praise God while waiting on an answer. I don't know what God has for me/us but this I do know- that I need to praise Him through this because God will give me rest. The Lord knows the beginning and the end. He is Alpha and Omega. Show me Lord how to seek you for answers. Show me how to have a heart for God, change mine.
The beginning of this years journal entry was about praising Him and it seems to be the theme throughout this whole year. Today, six months later I am still praising Him. This is what God has been teaching me this season, "When we praise Him, We rest in Him." When I look back and see all that He has done, it makes me want to praise Him even more.
The Lord has given me rest. He has given me rest in my mind and heart. What was once hard to face, has become a blessing in the making. The Lord has restored my peace and loved me in a way that is gentle and beautiful.
It's amazing. That journal entry which was written in a time of desperation and hurt was actually a prayer in the making. Now, by his grace, He has answered it. God is good and HE IS WORTHY of all our praises.....JustFood4Thought
2 Chronicles 15:14 And they sware unto the Lord with a loud voice, and with shouting, and with trumpets, and with cornets