I'm being transparent when I write this...
I was sitting in the parking lot of jack in the box, talking to God about this season of singleness. For a moment I felt lonely. It hit me like a brick. Where did it come from? I cannot say for sure. Maybe it was when I was watching the cars pass by with people. Maybe it was when I was watching a tv show. Who knows but reality hit and it hurt.
I was like, "God, when will I meet who you have for me? It's not easy being single. It is so easy to make a phone call but it's not worth it. It gets lonely sometimes." While I was watching the clouds move, I heard a word. I heard this preacher say, "God is trying to show you the truth through your pain so you will stop looking at it with your eyes." Wow! That was deep.
Immediately, I switched gears. Instead of pouting, I started praising Him. I started thanking Him for the time I have to be alone with Him. Thanking Him for my future husband. Thanking Him that my past does not dictate my present or future. Thanking Him that I am above and not beneath. Thanking Him that I am the head and not the tail. Thanking Him that our (my future husband and me) paths will cross this year. Thanking Him for the one he has for me. Thanking Him that my husband will have color eyes. (Yes, I did).
The truth is, during this season, God is my husband and He says that I shall not want for a mate. He is my first true love. God is love and love never fails. This is the time to take my eyes of the word “singleness” and onto God. Once He is the first in everything, there will be no room for anything else.
God is so good though. He loves to encourage. Team Jesus! When the flesh becomes overwhelming, He gently leads us back on the right path. It's like a father gently taking your hand and guiding you with a smile and a hug. How can you not want to do right? I love when He reminds me how much he loves me. Loneliness? Was I feeling lonely? Jesus took it away once I started praising Him.
I will glean through this season of singleness because I know that God doesn't lie. I want to reap the harvest of a God loving husband. I want to reap the teaching of becoming a godly single woman. Whatever God has for me this season; I will praise Him through it……….JustFood4Thought
New Living Translation
Gal 6:9 "So let's not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don't give up."
New International Version
Isaiah 34:16 "Look in the scroll of the LORD and read: None of these will be missing, not one will lack her mate. For it is his mouth that has given the order, and his Spirit will gather them together."